so long never blog already! okay i've decided to make it a habit to blog!!! hahah (: been busy with common tests and assignments *sigh*

going to lynette's house tmr! you dont know how happy i am! haha! finally! she thinks i cant cycle so she's gonna "teach" me! in fact, I DO KNOW!!! hahaha! im gonna pretend i dont tmr and then she'll think im so pro can pick it up so fast!! :D how smart am i??

Today after dance, I went out for lunch with 2 of my dance friends. We talked alot. I told them, everything. Everything about Isaac. How I loved him, but how it all ended. I cried on the way home. Because, I denied the fact that I still like him. BUT WHY DO I? He's a jerk, i tell myself. I hate him I hate him. And i tell everyone that. I tell HIM that. But why, oh why, why cant i get over him? Then, a couple walked passed me. The girl was clinging on to the guy, she smiled so brightly at him and she looked up at him, with that gleaming eyes, full of passion and love. But he, shook her hand away. Whats this? Are all guys like that? Should i ever ever ever trust in relationship? Well, i guess, Im way too young to make that decision. All i want to happen at this moment of time, GET OVER HIM.

whats wrong with me?

Why cannot post through iphone! Aiyoyo its like so troublesome! HIYA. Today I'm supposed to be happy, but i really don know why i ain't. We didn't quarrel today, why ain't i happy? Shouldn't i be jumping for joy since that was what i really wanted? Or was it? Maybe i wanted more. Yes, i wanted more. Why am i so unreasonable? I only want her to myself. Why am i so selfish? WHY? Whats wrong with me? Right now, i feel like crying. I feel like a total jerk. She has other friends too, you know. You are not her only friend! Let go, let go. Tomorrow will be better. I won't get all jealous. I won't get pissed for no reason. Yes, that is going to happen.

YESTERDAY.

It was such a bad night. Modern dance sucked ttm. I couldnt do a handstand, so everyone had to put up with me learning a simple one. I could tell that they were annoyed. Then Miss Jane gave us (more like them) a long talk how we should work together and give some other people (which was obviously me) time to pick up steps. SIGH. But actually I really thanked Miss Jane, she didn't pin point who she was talking about, and after all she was very encouraging. I know I wont get into the performing group anymore, and I don't really want to actually. I'm tired of being looked down, or being the odd one out cuz I can't catch up. I hope this gets better.